To Kill A Mocking Bird....err...or Time....

well...what happen yesterday repeat itself again today....

my day starts at 10am today and i rushed to my english class because i was too engrossed watching Love In The Ice by DBSK... (miss them as 5...>< )

when i got to the 3rd floor,there was only Alya,Tiha n Kak Liha....

well...Zaryn told me she wont be coming...and Sarah had...well,thats for me to know and you to remain not knowing it....haha...and Kuncup was missing in action...

Then Miss Yatt came and asked for the others...we are suppose to have game today....and then Kamal came.. (its weird,i used to call him Wan)

and since there were only 5 of us,she only tell us about what our exam gonna be,the last minute tips...and we were dismissed...hardly after 30mins of the class....

well.....this is just the same as 'we dont have a class' like yesterday....

and physics lecture is cancelled....

and now im waiting in Anjung Siswa waiting for this one hour time to finish,get into lecture hall for maths lecture,go back to room,having snack,get to physics tutor class (the last day to meet Sir dzarfan :"(  )

finish class,grab my lunch...and my day is officially end.....nil,nada....opseo....

aishhh.....now i have to wait and wait and wait in boredom....

yeah..its true....waiting is a torture....

im bored...wanna watch something or listen to something but my battery have to be reserved to last for this full hour....

kay...enuff babbling.....me off.....annyeong..........

You'll still be...In my heart....

This is regarding my post before....

When I read about that girl,her name was Fatini....

I realise....how close we are to death....

Whether its OUR death...or people around us....

And I've experience it....

Losing someone around you....

Losing someone that is your family...

Losing someone that you loveD...

Its been almost a year since he left us....

since he left me...

and i will never forget the date Allah claims what is His...

He left on May 11th 2010,exactly on the second day I came to KMPk...

And till this date i regret it that i didn't forced my mom to come and picked me....

to see him for the last time....

coz they already on their way to selangor at the time i got the news...

Out of my family....my whole family...i was the only one who didn't attend his funeral...

even my dad's step sis came from pahang....my uncles came from negeri 9...

all our relatives all over Selangor came to pay him a last visit....

All....but me. His so-called childhood buddy...didn't see him for the last time...

I still wondering why I cried so much for him....

For the whole weekend of my orientation,I cried whenever he cross my mind...

In fact,I'm crying silently now...

Even for my late grandfather,i only cried on the day he died,when i was 14...

but for my cousin,i lost count how much tears i put out...

And my tears will suddenly roll down whenever i heard the song "Kau Sahabat Kau Teman" by Hijjaz...

when i was in boarding school,that is the song that we will sing whenever one of our friend transfer to other school....

And it never crossed my mind that it will be the song...

when my cousin transfer to another world...

A rubic cube was beside me right now...

and that only makes it worse....

coz the last memory i had with him was,the rubic cube.

Right before i started my SPM exam in november 2009,rubic cube became a new sensation in my school...

my juniors that had finish PMR and had nothing to do spend their time practicing on the cube...

i used to become a noob in cubes before...but then i had 1 of my junior to teach me....

and thats how i spend my time after spm...

shortly after my exam ended,my dad planned to go to his step sis house...

and my 2 uncles were to come along with their family...

and i can see all of them were engrossed in those cubes too...

i was still practicing and never solved any....when he,my cousin said he had solved it...

so i want to beat him....and finally i manage to solve the cube...

and since i played with it almost all the time in car (what do you expect?we spent most of our time in car travelling),i soon becomes pro at it...

and it hit me when i never saw him solve a cube till the end...

so i asked him,and he said he never solved one....

i laughed at him...and he asked me to teach him...

i did,but i never finish it since our vacation together ended soon....

after a week or so after our vacation,we went to his house for...i dont remember why...since my mom older sis live there too...my mom and dad's family are bonded...and it will take a whole another post to explain that...

btw.....i asked him about the cube...and he said he success in finishing it...

at least,even if i didnt teach him completely,he still managed to solve one...

some of you might think, "its just a cube,duh"

well...for me,its not just a cube...

its the memory behind it that matter...

and since i was in boarding school,i rarely met my other family and rarely went back to my village even if it was holiday....because my dad is kinda busy with his work....

so i often missed the family gathering when my uncle that live far come back...

and i did say we was childhood buddy...

coz when we was little...we only had each other...he was the oldest grandson in our family....

and now i took his place as the oldest grandaughter...

God,please stop these tears....

the last vacation that we had together before that last memory was in 2007...exactly 1st December 2007.....

we were on wedding party on behalf of my dad cousin to Kedah...

after the wedding,my oldest and youngest uncles decided to head to penang,while we,my granny youngest brother,my dad and his twin (yes,his dad and my dad is a twin) headed to Kelantan....

we spent 8 hours in car,surrounded by forest....until we reached Kota Bharu at midnight...

we slept at one of ex-neighbour of my granpa.....and head to my mom cousin's house the next day....

then we checked in to a chalet at Pantai Cahaya Bulan....and thts when we started to get closer again....

me,my uncle(dad's cousin) and him...

yeah....only both of them are guys....while the others are girls....

my three lil sis and also his 2 lil sis...well....he also has a brother but Aiman was too little to be counted as 'guy'...

when the Moms and Dads (well,my granny and his granny were there too,of course..) went to shopping,we were in charge to look after the smaller....

and we had such a good time together...

since we got 4 chalets (one of his mom's brother came too),its only our family in that area...

at night,we brought food to one of the err....open area with only roof on...

and the wind was sooooo freshening....

we spent some times together and then proceed to Terengganu....went shopping at pasar payang....and his room was beside us in the hotel...

he joined my uncle's family room since they were only three....

and we,the older girls,5 of us share one room...

even though our room were next to each other,we still text instead of shout...

well,basically its me texting with my uncle,not him.....

and we proceed to pahang the next day,stopped by at RnR Temerloh since another of my dad's step sis was there,a hawker....

we had to go back earlier after 5 days of vacation since my uncle was having his spm at that time.....

yeah,i was 15,he was 16 and my uncle was 17....thats why we clicked each other.....

i even got scolded by my mom since i hang out with my uncle at the chalet lobby late at night....

but thats the memories i had with him....and i had none anymore....

and will never have any...anymore....

i kept thinking why i still crying when suddenly i think about him....

even in my class....in his house...in places that would reminds me of him....

and thats because...i never had anyone that i can talk to about him...

and its been a long time too since i met my uncle...

he is busy with his life...

its hurt me to see everytime i open my myspace account,his was there....but will never be updated anymore...

my mom once scolded him coz he was too lazy to take care of his sick brother (did i mention aiman before?)

but for me....he will always be the best brother for me....

i still keep our childhood picture...

where my granny was holding him,my dad was holding me,and we were cutting two cakes...and the pic he had a helmet on,sitting on the chair with his younger sis,me and my sis and one of our cousin held by our dads step sis....

im still looking for the pic where he hug me from behind....

i saw it before,but i cant remember where...

im closer to my uncle than him from the start...

this was when we were in terengganu...

and my uncle was there too....

sorry Bad,i didnt delete this....

these are his old picture that i snapped when i went to his house recently...

this is the last picture that we had together,back in 2009...

if only i knew....

this is the latest pic of him before he go....

May you rest in peace... Allahyarham Muhammad Amirul Syafiq Bin. Hussin

1991-May 11th 2010

Al-Fatihah...

And hopefully.....I can accept the fact that he is waiting for me...to meet him in Al-Jannah...

even though it feels weird to not see him combs Aiman's hair,spiking it...

even though it feels weird to not hear his granny call his name 'Apik!' again....

even though it feels weird to not hear Ayu or Ada scream 'Abang!' anymore...

even though it feels weird to not see his mom scold him for almost ruining the car (even though its his bike that got him into the accident)

even though it feels weird to not see him carrying Alya everywhere...

even though it feels weird to not hear my granny nagging at him anymore...

even though it feels weird to not see him sitting at the front of his granny house whenever i come to visit

even though it feels weird to not teasing him how dark he had be......

and he teasing me about my weight....

the most of it....

how it feels weird to not hear his laugh anymore.....

to hear him screaming Aiman's name.....

to hear his voice arguing with his mother....

to hear he makes fun of his granny....

and not to see him smile at me anymore....

I'll try to overcome this....

I had to admit.....because of that accident....a lil bit of me changed....

Even if i dont have him by my side anymore....

he will remain in my heart forever...

and hoping that i won't be sad forever...

there is one thing i regret though....

the fact that...

i never had the chance to say....

I Love You,Apik.....

Once Upon A Day... (><)"

Today,is indeed a loooooooooooooong day...

Even though i had fun during last physics' lecture class in the evening...

But that a whole different story...

I really love Wednesday...

Because since cocuricular class ended,my day start at 11 a.m

and last night I ended up slept late in the "night"...well,its morning actually....

and i woke up today at 10...thank god for sending the angels to wake me up coz i didnt set my alarm anymore.....

or I'll miss my class today....

So i rushed out,grabbing my attire for today and went to iron room...

too bad,there was no electricity at our floor...

so i went to 1st level....

and basically i managed to catch up on my class...in fact,i'm early today...

so i went to ATM machine to see whether it is ok...

im totally broke coz that machine was out of service when i went to check on it last night after dinner with my KMM....

luckily,its okay today.....and im a happy girl with money again....

Alia was there too....so i waited on her and we went to 3rd level for maths tutor....

we waited on Sir Sah to arrive but he was unusually late today.

the only person that have his number is our monitor and he was absent.....

so we waited for a good 20mins before we decided that he wasn't coming around....

then we went to bistro because apparently Tiha was "sooooooooooooo" hungry and we stay in front of lecture hall.....

and our class was the earliest to get to the hall today....

the point is,i could had another one good hour of sleep....even Sarah agree with me....

So we continue our live...yadda yadda....

and for evening class...we had maths lecture and pyhsics lecture....

we dont really learn anything during physics lecture...

coz Sir Redzuan asked us to fill the evaluation form for him....

and he gave us a good laugh too....

and then he let us out 30mins earlier....

so i went to cafe to buy something to eat....

and i saw my former teachers.....

idk how to adress them coz the last time i checked only 2 of them is married....

Miss Sauyah,Miss Tuziah,Madam Marini and Madam Norzie...

2 of them are warden...

and im not so close with wardens accept my add maths teacher...

hello......2 times caught bringing phone,ring a bell?

and my add maths teacher doesn't really care....

there once i was sick and stay at my dorm during trial spm...

she came to checked on us (me and my 2 dormates)....

i was just calling my mom before that to pick me up and only put the phone on me....

she saw it but pretend like she didn't...

Love you,Miss Fazilawati...

and then i continue watching the vampire diaries.....

when suddenly my lappy went dead.....

i checked and urgghhh.....

the electricity on plug went down again....

i was so pissed off that i stopped watching the series.....

and just now....i was downloading U-Kiss new album Bran New Kiss... (its really BRAN,without a "D")

and that just throw me over my edge......

and then Zaryn barged in,asking me bout my friend's junior that died of leukemia....

and it turned out to be that she was also Zaryn's junior....

i went to her room to see her pic coz i couldnt find any in my schoolbook...

and when i read her junior blog post about that girl,it reminds me of something....

That,will be on the next post...

The Last Trip to Kinta Mall Jaya Jusco .... (hopefully,if you know what i mean...)

Last week, March 26th 2011, i made my last trip to JJ....

why?? because after this i will be having my final exam and end my study here in Perak...(thats it unless i manage to persuade my dad to go there again when he come to pick me up on my last day, April 20th)

aahh....da tau nk exam ko bole huha huha lg en.....ko tak igt UPS ko dpt bpe?? yeye....Umira sedar diri skg nih...

anyway.....jumaat malam tuh tido lmbt....sebok online nye psl...tgk2 jam....

hambik ko....da kol 4 pagi...secepat kilat ak tutup mata....mata jer la tutup..lappy x...

ak pasang lagu DBSK Before You Go on the loop....jd lelabi...eh eh... lullaby....  ^^

tu jer la idea ak nk ngabihkan duit KMPk nih....bak kater Umi si rumet ak... "kiter byr RM360, gune je lar... "

ye....betol tuh cik Umi....ko pon ngikut la cakap dye kn Umira...

pstu melalak ble lappy rosak....ish3....

btw...smbung citer...tersedar kol 6 lebih kot...pstuh pejam mata jap...

ala...5 menet jer....

aah....ye 5 menet ko....bgun2 da 7.45 am....

melompat ak sambar jeans,shirt ngan tudung g bilik iron...

nasib la tader org....sbb bdk akaun pon ader program gak...

iron mane dan je...mandi trus siap.....dalam kol 8.20 da turun dah....

turun tgk ader 2org mamat tgh tggu bas gak...

pstuh dtg sorg minah nih......

tp gle lme pnye tggu bas xde gak...bas cik mus gaye cm xjalan jer....

where is the bus,the bus,the bus....

so mamat tuh pon pggl la van....

i plead them to wait since zaryn,kuncup ngan tiha xturun ag.....

while waiting for them,2 girls arrived....

and while i scanned my card,my former teacher and my juniors came by car to have bfast....

ehem2...miss akma n her daughters la......

then we proceed to our destination,by dropping zaryn,kuncup n tiha at ipoh parade...and then go to jj...

after setting to meet again at 6,i went to mcd,my usual place....

but sadly...my usual seat was taken so i had to find another...

after settled down on my seat,cooling my porridge,i open my lappy la....online,donlod..yadda yadda....

bubur ayam mekdi,anyone??  :Q_____________

the usual....sbb tuh org pelik cmner ak bley stay smpai 2jam lam mcd tuh.... ^^

im not other ppl that smpai2 jer terjah movies dlu....nononono...
movie is not my thing...unless soshi asked me to accompany them...

weeeeheeeeee....haha,yeah...im crajee....i know.....  ><

while waiting for my download to finish....i observe my surrounding...

yeah...my habit....so that i know what kind of people that exist....

many came with their family....having breakfast together....ahhh what a happy family....

tp ader gak yg dtg ngan bf/gf...

isk3...  SMH

tetibe raser lonely....ye lar,dah alone kan...mst la lonely....

kalo happy lonely cenggini taper....

 tapi kalo cmni??  sedey jer aser....  

kalo dlu ader gak la bertiga ngan minak dua ekoq nih....

lepas ak ngabihkn bfast and get a set of chicken mcnugget for later(my tactic...haha...),i went to the 1st floor...

as usual....my feet nih laju jer menjejak Speedy tuh....tader cd pon gi gak...tgk album mirotic yg ntah ble nk berambus org bli...(tader cassie ke kt ipoh nih?? da tukar jd JYJ n HoMin nyer fans plak?)

pstuh usha2 Lucifer yg mnx dibeli tuh.....(sorry ah...i xbli yg tader poster even imported from korea pon....)

belek2 cd bigbang,gdtop ngan seungri.....gaye cm nk bli tp xpon...haha....tgh bulan doe...
da la mak aku xbg balik...merermpat la ak kt kmpk dri cuti cny smpai balik...

tp mmg bad luck laa....tetiber nmpk Into The New World Live Tour Concert plak.....

tggl satu jer plak tuh.....ak amek,soh dye smpan jap...turun cucuk duit...

on the way g atm i went to another cd house...

and it turn to be that it has two of the cd and the price is cheaper...

but i didnt purchase it there coz that shop mostly take the Hong Kong version...

so i bought the imported one from speedy....

Yeah....its the one at the bottom....the pink one....the other one is Hoot....

a sneak peek on the content (basically its the entire album...)

this is the back side...

it has two disk....with pink sea for the background...

my Fany is so beautiful....

what a lovely sight.....

Finally Saebyuk really got married..haha...

but not with these two Yoona...Teukie oppa will get mad...

nine angels...how you could not love these Cheonsa???

SeoHyun ah...you are a GODDESS

HyoRi..... ^^

though i love SHINee too...no way i ship OnSic...sorry Onew oppa...

SeoBB had grown up....  *tears*

OMO!! sekshi Taeng.... Cesca unnie will love this i bet...  ><

How come this kid leader can be sooooo kyuteeeeeeee....

Jealous enuff,Yoona?? you can easily spot her choding looks.. 

nooooo...not even KeySic is allowed....

i miss my blonde barbie....Sica ya....  ><

Sooyoung make a beautiful santa...Santa Baby...

Singing In The Rain....i love this song...

they looks like a worls class star...

wait,they ARE a WORLD CLASS STAR....

Sunny Bunny....tired?? You are the energizer pil,remember??  ^^

Kwon Yuri Is so beautiful.... Black Pearl indeed.....

Hyoyeon is so beautiful....

STEPHANIE HWANG MI YOUNG!!! DONT DO THAT!!!  *dies*

In the end, SOSHI BOND is THE BEST.... OT9 FTW!!!

i really hope one day i will be able to be a part of pink sea....

dont you all want the same thing, MYSones??

and perhaps.....some day i will have my own Pink Lightstick...

Better yet, Pink Saber....

i didnt get the chance to update my collection so enterframe kn Hoot skali...

i got Sunny photocard...anyone want to trade with me?? me want Fany or Jessie....

and the sticker?? i wont use it.....EVER.

after that i went to the bookshop to check on YG,chinese Epop,Klik and Gempak....

but on the way something caught my eyes....

Jihoo sunbae!!!!  haha..

before this is Bae Yoong Jun...idk when they change it....

ini pon maen snap jer....the staff pandang smacam jer trus ak bla....

pas bli klik ngan gempak,trus lepak surau...before this ak lepak surau nk charge lappy (jahat giler...  :P)

tp xbwk charger plak...igt nk stay smpai kol 3 jer...tp dah balik kol 6...hmphh...

hari ni seriously bapak giler ramai org...slalu kol 12 tuh ak je rajin dok surau...ni da ader org dah...

pstuh..msuk waktu jer penuh ngan bebudak pkai uniform... (bdk skola la...)

ader Karnival jom msuk U kt MBI...tu rmai tuh....

jiran skola adik ak pon ader...

ak wt muke kerek la....haha..tunjuk sgt ak da xskola.... :P

kuar je surau ak turun pi Pizza Hut...craving for some after reading Hanis Zalikha blog last night....

waiting at the counter.....

sbb lme sgt ak pon msuk la jj mall tuh....bli aper lg,sushi la...

its the must buy thing everytime i went here....

me love them!!!!!

then,i went back to Pizza Hut,and my pizza still not ready yet.....

so i had to wait for a couple more minutes....

still waiting...org kt dalam tuh da slamat belahak dh pon...  ^^

lps jer pizza ak siap,ak nek atas nk gi bli hadiah....

nk nek eskelater kne lalu dpn Famous Anous nih....

tetibe nmpk lolly nih bebanyak..

dh mcm kissing you jer plak asernyer....

you are my diabetic cause....arghh....  ><

alololo tomeinyer.....

yg lam display nih mmg utk tgk jer la....

nk bli xmampu....huhu.......

Kenny tu sbla pizza jer...tp mmg lgsung tader niat pon nk try...

ak pon memblahkan dri trus gi S&J....nk bli present for tuka2 hadiah utk tutor chemist next week....

then kne tggu plak die wrap hadiah tuh.....yeah..im too lazy to do it by myself....

so i go out and wander outside of the shop...

yeah...see at the back?? Baskin Robin!!! Khunnie must be proud of me...  ^^ (even if i dont eat that...  )

when i look under,i saw this....

it feels like SuJu concert.....elf must be happy....

me want pink balloons.....yah!! you bias enuff??

i wanna sit but......now this is the real "which seat can i take?"

dont know?? go search for Rebecca Black's Friday 

here 

 (cant believe im promoting her mv...get ready to plug your ears guys...if you are too 'smart to watch her video...)

still waiting....with the students at the back...

after this...i wont see this shop anymore... 

tired of waiting... (mcm lagu 2PM  ^^) then i went back inside the shop.....

i want to give this to all nine of them because all of them are hot..

but since only Tiff and Jessie loves pink, I'll give this to Tiff because i love her a lil bit more... (mianhae Jessie unnie..i swear i'll find you a present for your bday soon...^^)

Yah Hwang Mi Young!! you better wear that watch and not be clumsy anymore... (even though i love DdilFany...)

this,too....reminds me of Tiffany....Because its pink??

well...that is one but mostly because Tiff cant ride a bicycle..haha...  ^^ 

and this reminds me of Jessie...she had this kind of hair during Gee...

haha....same ah?? naughty yoong at the back...

and this is juz the right thing for Kwon Seobang,Yuri....

Yuri ah...you laike this ah??

Yuri loves Mickey Mouse so much and even share the same bday with Walt Disney.... 

pstuh ak g McD balik....bese la kan...ak mmg suke trun naik cmtuh....tader keje..hak2..

kn btol rmai org.....

ak straight went to the back and grab single seat....

tu sbb bli Nugget in advance...ad alasan nk dok kt McD...

Coke dh bpe kali refill dh...hehe...

pstuh nmpk la incik Ronald tuh....

"Aii....Welcome To McDonald..."

so ak pon snap la stu pic ngan incik Ronald tuh....

(jgn bitow dye.....nnt kne byr..ngeh2.. ^^)

ak pon kuarkn la nugget siap nk mkn.....nih la lunch ak....

(luch aper kol 4 lebih?? kalo mk ak tau membebel la dye...haha2..sorry ibu... )

dpn ak ader one family of 4 tgh tggu their food....the son saw me taking pic and want to go to incik Ronald tuh...so his mom ask her daughter to watch over him....i thought they are going outside but they suddenly headed my way.....

he wants to go out......

his eyes are soooooo round.... gwiyoptaaaaaaaaa.......

he is too cute...sumpa kalo mak dye tader ak cubit2 pipi dye...

hak2..mode kijam....  ^^

when their daddy was done,they change their seat to sit besides me.....

and this time the daddy accompany them outside... 

he looks so happy.... (bebudak...bese lar....)

this is the sister.....what are doing girl?? wanna hi 5 ah??

this is random....she was waiting for her bf...

how do i know??

because at the counter there was only one foreigner.....

I'll continue this post later.....coz i dont think it can be stuffed in one post only....  ^^