this post is specially created to cheerish this night, this memorable night,
that eventually will swept all our joys and regrets throughout this year away...
one would like to live their life to the fullest tonight, being in a cramped place together with other people that they barely meet...or never once meet....
or maybe savoring this time together with their loved one,
albeit their family, wife, husband, children, fiancee, or GF/BF (this is not adviseable,people...)
be it in their cozy little place that they called home,
or simply anywhere that they could find their comfort with...
having a dinner together, merrily chatting with each other,trying to catch up on anything that they missed...
or maybe...snuggle closely, in front of the fire, with a cup of hot chocolate in their hand, simply telling stories that will drift them into a deep sleep...
for me, eventhough my loved one are not by my side tonight, it makes me happy to know that they are somewhere on this earth, safe and sound...
knowing that my father might as well changing the channel, only to make my sister pissed off at him, or the other two younger sisters that i have that might be yelling at each other, busily running around inside the house, fighting over useless things...or my mother's voice that could be heard throughout the house,telling them to stop...
and to know that my other nine sisters are enjoying themselves as well, reliefs me...
they might be practicing on their songs, perfecting their dance moves, coughing to warm their throat, make a several voice practice, or simply chatting with each other, or sneaking to other girls group waiting room, creating a close bond that even camera could not snap on, or maybe telling jokes to relief their nervousness,despite their 6-7 years practice and 3 years debut's experiences...
or maybe,juz maybe...seeking the warmth by sneaking their arms around each other waist or shoulders, because it is freaking 10 degree c there...or...simply praying for the best on the last night of the year that had witness their ups and down,their joys and sorrow,their tears,blood and sweat, their tears,tears of their hurtful pain and tears of their joy...and of course...their success that the world finally had acknowledge...
I might want to reminisce down to my so called memory lane...coz it never hurt to look back,but it's hurt if it kept happened over and over...
Starting of the year 2010, i juz finished my big examination that will consequently lead me to my future...
but, being the ignorant that i am, i didnt put my 100% efforts in it...
and juz like that, i spent my time at home without anything to do...thats it if my father didnt ask me to help him and bring me to work...
that is in January...
February...i still continue with the same routine for the second month... unlike my other friends that have to finish their national service that last for 3 months...
i love adventures,seriously i am...im not a staff sergeant for no reason...
but silently, i send my grateful to Allah, because i didnt get to attend the program...
because, this is the only time that i have to spend with my family...
for the past 5 years, ive been in 2 different boarding school,spending my time mostly at school,hanging with my friends...because once i get back home,my only friends are my 3 lil sisters...
and i feel bad about that...because once,i accidentally read my sisters' text to her bf,saying that life at home was pretty dull...have sisters but feels like dont...
it hit me hard,and since then i try to make my time with them,especially my juz-turn-17-year-old-last-2-days sister...(even if most of the day i was at cyber cafe as they went to school)
and since i didnt own my lappy yet at that time,i became a regular at that cc...
and yes,it was because of my craze to Super Junior at that time...i watch all their shows,download all their songs and albums,learning every single fact about them and continue to find news about them as my friend wasnt there to supply me anymore...and not to mention,i tried to watch Boys Over Flower in a week time....and i success....because i watch it late at night when nobody was watching tv....i spend 5 hours every night,nonstop juz to watch my Jihoo sunbae...hehe...and you read that right,5hours...i went to sleep when my sister get ready to go to school...or when my dad went to masjid...
March finally arrived, bringing new feelings to me...
not only because of the result,but also because of i officially declared myself to the world as a SONE.
i stumble upon SNSD news on local newspaper,telling about the success of their new song, Oh! some time behind but i paid no attention as i was an ELF at that time...but out of nowhere,1 day as i was clueless as what show to watch at that time,i suddenly remember of Oh!
i searched on youtube and found their mv,and i might say that their song is quite catchy...but i juz leave it at that point.
back at home,i dont know why my mind kept playing the mv again and again...and seriously,that was the first time i was restless for the rest of the day simply because of one mv...
the next day,the first thing that i did was downloading the mv together with the song to my phone...
its funny...because the first time i know about Girls' Generation i didnt like them at all...
its all because of Haptic cf that they are in together with DBSK which are my bias in 2008...i even hate Jessica for being so lovey dovey with my Changmin oppa...but im not an anti,i remind u...
2009 is the year when Gee swept the kpop world...but im still blind at that time,coz to me kpop is only about my bias which is SuJu....however,i do have gee mv and tell me your wish mv in my pgone at that time,together with other pop song at that time...
i even encourage my dormates to be an ELF...i kept showing them their mvs and their show....along with their picture of course...coz Super Junior files take the biggest space in my memory card..
i have this one habit,which is i only love that particular song if i think the mv is great or fun to watch...if i straightly download the song,then it must be very good then...
